I need to vent a bit, I (24m) met my current gf on Wooplus and this is the biggest woman I've ever been with. Shes an afro latina has the huge arm fat, very wide apple big back build, a lopsided but huge double belly and the closest person i can think of resembling her is jaebae in the 1st pic w/ the red bikini. She a bit dull and I dont think she has much going on, but always texts back super quick. We've been on multiple dates and Ive been over her place a few times now. Each time I go I offer to do some feedee experiences w/ her. Shes not into feederism but has heard of it before and is super open to doing this with me as long as it makes me happy. Belly jiggling, feeding her junk food and soda, squashing and all that delicious body playing, shes even gotten turned on. This should be feeder heavean
but I still miss my first feedee unfortunetly. We met online when i was in college thru her feedee socials and she was perfect. She was a smaller feedee content creator back on feabie. The most beautiful girl ive ever seen shes half asian half latina and beats my current gf in the looks department looks like the girl in 2nd only a bit lighter. Vey well proportioned, beafiful double belly, is actually into feederism and wanted to gain weight. I still remember the amazing sex, feeding sessions, belly plays, the pics and vids she would send to tease me, and lowkey miss it all. She moved across the country and we tried long distance for 2 months before she ended it all w/ me. I was devasted and it was so painful seeing her post herself partying or out at the club so I removed her from all my socials to save my mental health.
I fell into a down bad mood and saw she was advertising her content on feabie and her weigh history has blown up reaching 300lbs. This has made me turned on remembering how i used to think she was big before befroe when she was a bit over 200 but now its a dream come true seeing her actually stick thru gaining. I made the worst decision of my life in a pre nut clarity fogged brain. I followed and mesaged her been hoping to be able to buy content somehow. My horny mind took over, a weeks past and my message is left unread. Ive checking feabie to see if anything pops up but nothing and probably never will. This has caused me to go in a terrible mood and affected my dreams where I had one where I finally met her after 3 years and relived our great feeder/feedee moments at her new size. I feel depressed and sad, tried going over to my current girls place to ease the tension but its gotten bad where i left to the bathroom to check and nothing. Any advice how to get over this? I workout as much as I can after work and try texting my current gf as much as I can but dont feel the same spark before i did this
