Well, my friends, I am in a bad situation.
I had been dating an SSBBW for the past 2 months. She is a nice person but there were several issues with the relationship:
- She was more into me than I was into her
- She wanted a serious relationship ASAP, and to have children sooner rather than later
- The sex wasn't very good
I told her how I felt about our relationship on Thursday. I told her I was open to the possibility of a more serious relationship, but I wanted to improve our sex life first. She did not take this well at all. She took my criticism of our sex life as a personal attack. I also think she feels like I was leading her on. We haven't spoken since.
I'm pretty sure we're going to break up. I'm more or less okay with that, but I still feel rotten. I feel like I've been an asshole. At this point I don't want to salvage the relationship (nor do I think this is possible).
Along with all of this, I think my attraction to fat women has waned significantly. I don't understand why nor can I articulate why. In my life thus far I have only had sex with fat women but I have always been attracted to women of all sizes. I have been on dates with skinny women but never managed to bed one.
I am going to take a break from dating for a while. Whenever I get back into dating, I think I will try dating skinny women again and see how that goes.
