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What's wrong with me? Should I stop being a coward and admit it straight up?
Anonymous
Mon 01 Jul 2024 09:22:27
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Apologies to diarypostNDo other FAs (especislly younger) struggle with this, or am I just a pussy?
Why can I tacitly admit to finding bigger girls attractive (IE agreeing with friends that we wouldn't mind dating a slightly heavier girl), and even flat out admit to another (admiteddly bi so less likely to judge proclivities I reckon) that I found our BBW classmate (280 at least, 300~ at the most) attractive and wanted to know if she were single, but in situations where a friend is getting clowned on for going out with a bigger girl, or lamenting that he could connect with a girl romantically but could 't see himself datimg due to being 300+ lbs (lucky bastard), I freeze up and immediately fear repercussions if I speak my mind?
Maybe it's just some remnant of trauma from my past experiences that fuels this fear, but it wouldn't surprise me since I have a lot of neuroses to begin with, but I'm still deeply contemplating whether or not I want to take that same friend who was lamenting that girl (tbh I don't know if he wasn't attracted to her so he broke it off or was and just feared rejection - I'm kinda leaning the latter), how girls like threadpic are pretty close to my ideal, as are models like Alex Storm, and that while I can be attracted to thinner girls like my last fling, it's generally a big exception mostly built off of emotional chemistry? (Although there are once in a blue moon events like with Charli XCX)?
Again, is this a normal fear that FAs face?
Why can I tacitly admit to finding bigger girls attractive (IE agreeing with friends that we wouldn't mind dating a slightly heavier girl), and even flat out admit to another (admiteddly bi so less likely to judge proclivities I reckon) that I found our BBW classmate (280 at least, 300~ at the most) attractive and wanted to know if she were single, but in situations where a friend is getting clowned on for going out with a bigger girl, or lamenting that he could connect with a girl romantically but could 't see himself datimg due to being 300+ lbs (lucky bastard), I freeze up and immediately fear repercussions if I speak my mind?
Maybe it's just some remnant of trauma from my past experiences that fuels this fear, but it wouldn't surprise me since I have a lot of neuroses to begin with, but I'm still deeply contemplating whether or not I want to take that same friend who was lamenting that girl (tbh I don't know if he wasn't attracted to her so he broke it off or was and just feared rejection - I'm kinda leaning the latter), how girls like threadpic are pretty close to my ideal, as are models like Alex Storm, and that while I can be attracted to thinner girls like my last fling, it's generally a big exception mostly built off of emotional chemistry? (Although there are once in a blue moon events like with Charli XCX)?
Again, is this a normal fear that FAs face?