Finally quit this fetish. All 200GB deleted. I’ve had this feederism kink/fetish since I was a kid. Always been in the back of my mind, it’s basically a sexuality for me. I realised that watching this sort of content started to corrupt my brain. We are all watching and promoting mental illness through this fetish. Continue to watch the video after you’ve nutted, study the models you watch. Do they seem happy? I have decided to separate this weird fetish out of my life in the hopes I can recover and become a better person. Although part of me has resentment, I thank this website for opening my eyes on this fetish and helping me understand myself. Good luck everybody

>>47293 (OP)
Good luck chat gpt

>>47293 (OP)
sure, instead of dealing with this part of you, you can try to deny it. maybe you'll even "succeed".

just note:
1. a preference is not a fetish.
2. don't be surprised if you can still see the real you when you look into the mirror.
3. better do not assume that all anons will follow your path of denial. many have learned to stand by their natural preferences and not to dismiss them as a disease.

I had the same feelings of guilt as a teen. Nowadays I'm happy I like what I like. You never just drop a fetish, it's not happening sorry.

>>47293 (OP)
Thought about this a lot as well. Definitely an addiction for me. Absolute brain rot but who gives a fuck at the end of the day. Yolo

>>47293 (OP)
You can check out any time you'd like,but you can never leave.

>>47293 (OP)
>Finally quit this fetish.
L OP

>>47314
Thanks for starting a guitar solo in my head ^^

>>47314

Am I the only one who gets what OP is saying? I mean I don't do what he described like literally studying a model after the climax and constantly thinking about them, but we live in a society where this shit ain't normally accepted, and I have similar feelings about this fetish/preference as to him.

I don't think he'll completely get over it tho. Like he said his brain is fucking wired from watching all this porn. I'm still attracted to skinner, pretty looking girls so bbws is really just a preference, but I can't say the same about OP. Maybe he's just quitting porn but still will be into bbws which is fine.

See you next week

No I hope you succeed but be realistic.
I've tried many times.

Once I went 6 months without any porn but I still had dreams about it and was still drawn to chubby women I saw offline.

I think quitting porn is never a bad thing but expecting this fetish to disappear is unrealistic. You might be able to weaken it's grip and discover other things that turn you on but be realistic about it.

I no longer need pregnancy or feedism to get aroused, just a lady with a slightly chubby belly is good enough and they're easy enough to find. If they decide to lose all the weight when we're dating I'll cross that bridge when I get to it I guess.

Good luck

Best of luck to you if you’re trying to quit porn, OP, but I hate to break it to you, you can’t get rid of a fetish. Not one like this anyways. As much as you may not like it, there’s no way I’m aware of that can help you actually kick it for good, I know from experience.

I tried to get rid of it when I was younger and extremely insecure about it. I tried everything I could think to try and force myself to stop liking fat, even going so far as to try and condition myself to associate it with negative stimulus by jabbing a finger with a thumbtack (which accomplished nothing but making me squeamish around thumbtacks for a few years) when I had these thoughts, but I came to the conclusion that it’s just not something you can do. I’m fairly certain that at least for most people into this, it’s something engrained in the mind, not a learned behavior that can be un-learned.

You can’t get rid of this fetish, instead you should try and get yourself in a position where your relationship with it is healthy. Don’t let it control your life, but don’t try and deny it’s part of your psyche either. I can’t really tell you how to do it since everyone has different psychology and what worked for one person may not work for everyone, if anyone else at all. I think a general good word of advice though, is that when you do have something you’ll want to try to improve your situation, take it slow, going cold turkey will probably just make it harder to change your mindset. I understand if you feel a sense of urgency and want to change yourself right away, but the mind needs time to adjust.

Good luck, and don’t hesitate to ask if you need help dealing with your thoughts. There’s good people here who have gone through this before and can walk you through it.

40 years of life, you're not "quitting" this anytime soon. You can quit hoarding porn, you can quit being a weirdo stalker, you can quit being insecure, but you will never cut this part of your brain out unless you literally get a lobotomy or become a eunuchs.

The most important part of my experience has been the ability to "balance" this part of me with my "normal" life. The being 400+ pounds, the gaining, the fetishism, that's not easy to live out for everyone who gets off on it because it really is straddling fantasy vs what is actually something people want to do along with everything else in their lives (get married, have kids, have a job, travel, etc). People want to be huge but also want kids so what do they do, they can try to do both, or figure out how to live with that desire in balance.

For me, "balance" has come through just talking about this thing soberly with a few key people in my life over the years, be they one-time encounters, or life partners, or a platonic like-minded friend, talking SOBERLY about myself and my experience with those people who were open and willing to hear me out has been absolutely freeing. Freeing me from the shame and the guilt and the disgust I had for myself for something I literally couldn't control.

That's just my experience, I do still wish there was more access and more places online where we could be more sober and open but those spaces are either vacant or non-existent. Not to say a Bash or something wouldn't be the place, I've never been, but the hook-up factor is something that would need to be overcome since we're all also deprived of an actual sexual encounter where this is celebrated vs hidden.

Anyway, everyone's different. Remove the shame, make a friend.

>>47439
This isnt even a master degree college thesis there was an attempt.

>>47439
I will have the courts type up a nice master degree thesis. 10 plus pages. How does that read.. I know youre here you calm predictable fool.

I feel like one of the main problems with all of this is what we (as a society, or humans whatever frame you want to set) have set as normal, good and average and what is not

If this preference was considered normal or a part of the average, would you want to get rid of it so badly?

There's many different preferences in this world
Some are considered as ok, some are weird or far off the set norm

Keep in mind this is just one of dozens
That's how humans work
That's how it has to be, it's supposed to be like that so that we don't all chase the same thing

It's basically like a plan (evolutionary or religious whichever you prefer personally) and you're one of those guys that was chosen to like sth different in a very simplified way

Basically anyone is
Some more some less

You maybe didn't beg for it to be like that, but it is basically your coding
And you can't really change your bios, you know
Especially when you already experienced it at early age

It could've been literally anything
Sth "harmless" like a strong preference for a certain eye or hair color

But for you and all of us it's fat women

And there's absolutely nothing wrong with that
Yes it of course may (not has to) lead to things such as health complications, but not necessarily

And you don't have to apply anything to the real world (feeding for example)

But on the other hand some people have a thing for unhealthy skinny girls or smokers

I wasn't in a relationship until very late teens because I was too afraid to be open about it and let other people see it..

But nowadays I'm happily married to a 400 pound woman and it's the neat thing ever

Because that's me and I don't try to be somebody I ain't

Just accept it and make the best out of it

And remember, it could've been sth way worse than soft jiggly bellies, tits and ass ^^

It's just not considered as normal and a lot of people hide it
But I feel like there's a lot more people out there not being who they really are

This is not a mental disability like identifying as a fox, this is just a natural preference you were given randomly and you should enjoy it

You won't ever feel the same with a skinny girl no matter how hard you try ;)

And you could make an insecure chubby girl very happy too

>>47439
In my similar experience what I need to get across is that it’s not just enough to have beliefs; nor just enough to have been experienced. What’s truly important is that you recognize how ephemeral and transient all of your being truely really is. Theseus’s ship and all that argonaut jazz. In a week all your sperm will be new; in months your blood itself won’t be your blood anymore. This is the nature of life, the river flows into the sea yet the sea is never full.
The harder you try to avoid fat women the more it will haunt and control you. As your attempt to cling to normie women and normie relations be careful you don’t leave claw marks.
Relax. Unless you’re swimming in pussy liking fat women is one of the most enviable abilities on earth.

>>47439

I fail to see how having sober discussions about being sexually aroused by womens belly fat or overeating and gaining weight is helpful in any way.

I know we aren't sick malevolent creatures for having these fetishes, speaking about it with family and friends who aren't always very open minded let alone equipped to discuss topics like sexual fetishes doesn't seem like it would provide any value.

In my experience these kinks are EXTREMELY unsettling and confusing to most people. Even people I know who have rape fetishes couldn't wrap their mind around the idea of feedism. Tread very lightly because people's reactions can reinforce the idea that we're fucked up or we enjoy seeing people destroy their bodies or something warped (I know some people in the community do)

I'm even reluctant to bring it up with any future partner going by people's past reactions. Even telling a lady you think her belly is sexy is risky if she's chubby, women want to feel adored but they don't want to feel fetishised.

I think the best thing we can do is to cut out porn and try to find a way to indulge this to the lowest degree possible.

But I know it's tough because porn is really the only way most of us can ever indulge this fetish so it's really appealing for that reason.

>>47459
I think he means talking about the preference with other people, not the fetishistic aspects of it. Like, a man will come out to his parents or friends as gay but not go into whether he's a top or a bottom, into leather dudes, etc.

Several people close to me know I'm an FA but no one (I think) knows I'm into feedism or fat humiliation. At worst they were amused by it, I never had a negative reaction. I've only shared that stuff with partners after a long period of building up trust and sussing out if they'd be receptive, or at least not horrified. (FWIW this happened twice, with mixed results.)

I believe the OP's problem isn't his preference for fat women or fat-related fetishes, which are hard-wired anyway and so not worth fretting over. It's that he was a sex addict, who saw himself as addicted to porn and masturbation. This is like any addiction, where dopamine receptors have to be retrained away from the act of finding porn and jerking off to it. Like getting building positive relationships and finding pleasure in healthier activities and hobbies.

I also don't believe we're in any way special where we have to indulge our fetish with porn. Porn doesn't occupy 1/3 of the internet just because of FAs or other fetishists. It's that (mostly) men like to get off while not having to take into account a partner's needs or feelings.

Porn addiction has always existed but it has gone into hyperdrive since the advent of the internet because of the convenience and privacy of it. I know I watch a hell of a lot more since it was available on my phone.

>>47468

Yeah but even then you're only giving them half the story if your real fetish or preferences are a lot less socially acceptable.

I will tell people I'm into curvy women because anything beyond that is where they start to pick it apart ,and that's one of the few words that most women don't mind being described with.

There is a healthy way to balance this fetish but due to it's nature I've found it hard to confine.

I don't think our porn addiction is stronger in the FA community necessarily but that it's the only outlet for a lot of people who don't want to or haven't been able to ever indulge in it offline. I mean the chances of me finding a lady with a chubby belly who is happy to stuff herself and gain some weight is effectively zero, and I would feel bad for encouraging her to be unhealthy as well.

So I think a lot of people into this stuff are addicted to porn for different reasons than most normie porn watchers, although it's still a dopamine addiction at the end of the day.

Having said all this I'm going to have another shot at abstaining from porn for a while - it's hard since social media and dating app photos can be arousing too but here goes

>>47293 (OP)
Have you ever fucked a fat chick tho? It's fuckin awesome why would you want to quit?

>>47480
This is what I wanna know. It fucking rules AND you have less competition with other men because they're all thirsting over skinny girls. We've got the jackpot.

>>47473
You're right, in that besides all the other editing I do I'm very reluctant to tell people I'm into women 350 lbs and over, even though I've dated women that size.

Could be a cultural difference between Australia and the US, but I still think it's more socially acceptable than homosexuality, being attracted to trans people, or certain races (not your own).

A lot of FAs build it up in their heads as something bigger than it is, while most people really don't give a fuck about the size of the woman you're with. And if we have to take some shit here and there so be it. I survived high school lol. You don't hear about guys being beaten up or denied housing or employment for being with a fat woman.

Good luck with your abstention.

>>47481
> It fucking rules AND you have less competition with other men because they're all thirsting over skinny girls

Maybe ugly fat girls are easier than ugly skinny women.
But hot fat chicks are in demand: Cheap dates, nicer girls, bigger ass and tits, suck dick like their hungry…
I’ve dated a ton, I’m 6’3” and 200 pounds of muscles. I can tell you, fuckable fat women are getting dick more than attractive skinny women.
It’s not all guys who will date them, but that doesn’t change the competitive landscape.
Every fat women I dated or fucked only wanted chads and was a complete size queen (like 7” is “average”).

>>47301
the only good reply in this stupid thread

>>47293 (OP)

You've not said whether you are in a relationship or not, and if she's a bbw or greater. IMHO it makes a difference.

If you've a thing for ssbbws, that narrows your dating pool significantly. I was late settling down into marriage and had 20 years of dating, relationships, flings, casual encounters etc 90% of whom were UK size 22, most considerably bigger. I didn't always like superfat women, but the bigger they were the more I was into it. It was like a fucking drug, I just couldn't get enough fat.

Watching 600lb women like Heather and seeing big cuties get insanely big distorts your real life appreciation of your preference for fat, in the same way that teenage boys think all women should be absolute sluts and crave anal and facials constantly.

Too much porn distorts real life relationships. Everything in moderation is a helluva good statement because it's true. A few drinks regularly is fine, downing half a litre of vodka daily just to function isn't.

It's not the fat fetish that's a problem, it's porn addiction. I don't think the OP has a fat fetish, he has a preference for fat women and an unhealthy fascination with porn.

If you're not in a relationship it distorts your view on having a healthy relationship with a fat girl. Real relationships with fat girls isn't feeding them cake and grabbing their fat on camera. I fucking love my wife, she's just under 300lb now, down nearly 100lb from 10 years ago, but we stopped fucking after COVID jabs and I got into a bad place with fat porn. It's like having an affair, porn is giving you the unobtainable. The wife is 290lb and I was coming to 600lb. That's virtually un-obtainable in the UK, and I wasn't never going to leave my wife to go chase it. But that dopamine hit was like the crackheads drug, so I made the effort to keep away from it a whole lot more. No doubt he'll put his feet in the water again, but keeping the actual fat fetish porn in check is fucking worthwhile to balance out real life experiences.

When you're having sex with someone you fucking love, you're not just getting the dopamine hit, youre both sharing serotonin and oxytocin which bonds you, and that throws a male orgasm through the roof and gives you a dopamine hit that far exceeds busting your nut to porn. That's what you need to keep in check.

Porn is having an affair and keeping it a secret from the wife. Your virtually cheating on your partner if you're letting it affect the actual real life relationship.

Before we got back to actual healthy regular sex I used the porn to get me off in my head, that ain't sustainable. It's also fucking selfish, your partner isn't grabbing your attention, it's the virtual porn in your head.

Fucking long way of saying well done to the guy for abstaining, if he's in a relationship it will work wonders putting porn away for a long while. If he's not, he should be able to focus on finding a great relationship, and hopefully be proud to date a plus sized girl, cos as we all know on here, fat girls are the best.


I'll give it a few hours tops before I get the obligatory 'youre a faggot' schizo remarks. Fire all your shitty comments you like, I have a great life and treaty fat wife like a fucking queen.

>>47493

*typos from using a mobile. Gives the trolls something else for ammo I guess. 😀😀

>>47494
Bruh I gave them so many pilot licenses more then once & still found a reason to be racist. Lmao

While in the spirit of OP, but not quite the same, I've come to the decision to finally quit porn and to remove my own stashes too.

I've liked fat girls since I first developed feelings for girls as a kid, and it really hasn't changed beyond me coming to terms with it as I matured. Fat chicks are definitely going to be a life long preference, sexuality, or fetish for me. Whatever term it is, it doesn't really matter to be honest. I'm just going to quit porn, and, in the future, make the opportunity for myself to get with a cute fat girl and have a fulfilling relationship with her.

I don't post here too often, but I figured some form of goodbye to this place was somewhat warranted given the years I was here for. More for me than for you guys for certain.

As some advice to help with getting off the goods for OP and anyone else, I heavily suggest reading the EasyPeasy Method. It's free and it's online. It's a quick read. It's cheesy at times, and certainly not something most people would care to read, but it helped me, and maybe it will help someone else here too.

I won't be seeing this place again so best of luck out there y'all.

>>47579
Imagine you’re a junkie ready to go into rehab to kick heroin and you go around to all your dealers for one last goodbye lol.

>>47582
Spotted.

"Dealers" lol thats cute. The surface was only scratched.

>>47584
I wish this guy the best, like the OP, but making a statement about it — especially here — is all about congratulating themselves for the righteous choice they've made. Not to mention it's kinda hollow given the track record of addicts in general, particularly those who are overly performative about their first few seconds of abstinence. Quitting means quitting. If they're still here, they haven't quit.

Quit it.

>>47584
What are you quoting?

There is nothing wrong with jeking off. I had stopped for more than a year and cameback. No remorse.

If it takes that much time that you hace to stop it, then yes, reduce it. But, don't stop. There is no reason to completely stop.

Plus, it will lower your testosterone levels.

There's just a lot of pressure to do so because of society looking down at jerking off, but it's actually is worse to no do it.

Like I said, I had stopped for more than a year (deleted everything as well) in the past.

Then, I took psychology classes and I learned about the negative side effects if not doing it. (reduced testosterone + its negative side effects like less sociable)

Not worth it.

Keep on pirating and jerking off!!

have*

>>47439
this is the way. Shame rarely does anything for you, it just prevents you from being honest with yourself about who you are and what you are. And if you can't be honest with yourself about those things, you can't be honest with other people about them, and you'll only continue to struggle connecting with other people.

You have latent fatphobia you need to work through bc feedism and fatness are morally neutral believe or not

>Continue to watch the video after you’ve nutted, study the models you watch. Do they seem happy?
Uhhhhhhhhh most of them yes lmao do you really think everyone with this fetish hates themselves?

At the end of the day you’re gonna die. Each day you come closer to the end and there is nothing that can be done. You’ll never get another chance at life. Are you not going to live a pleasurable life because of what society says is acceptable? The faster you accept who you are the faster you can get to living your own life regardless of the external messages we all get for being into this.

Im a 16 year old who is attracted to bigger woman but it is more complicated than that.

I have been attracted to larger woman since i have been 11 and started watching more explixit content when i was 14. Im trying to quit porn and masterbation in general, which is part of the problem but not the complete problem.

My problem is that i obviously keep my attraction to bigger woman a secret as being 16 it is not something which you can just open up to having friends and family who obviously and most likely doesnt understand it and probably make fun of and think you are weird for likeing it. However i deeply crave having a strong relationship and family with a woman which i love. And i want to be able to love this said woman not just because of her body.
Having this attraction to bigger woman is really affecting me as someone who is young. As i want to obviously masterbate and physically interact with these bigger woman but it feels like having this split personality as i have to hide my attraction and i always feel guilty about it after i masterbate. I hate having to keep these secrets which are always there in the back of my mind when with friends and family as it just makes me feel so different.
As i said i really want to have a normal life with an amazing woman and family which i can protect and love but i always have this weird guilt in the back of my mind.

However the simple solution would be to have a normal life with a bigger woman. But right now the problem for me is, my attraction to big woman is only satified through masterbation and i know that my need for having a normal life with a partner and a family can only be satified by being with a woman who im attracted to by the physical looks of their face which skinnier woman are more likely to have and an attraction to this womans personality.
And right now i cant tell whether or not this is solved by being in a relationship with a bigger woman as i will still have to deal with family and future friends probablly.
And again in my mind if i was in a relationship with a perfect woman who is big and has a pretty face and an amazing personality i would still feel guilty and still be thinking that im only satified by her body, as like i said i only am exposed to these bigger woman through porn and i just cant tell whether i have been exposed too much to the point where i think that i will only have this attraction just from porn which when in this said relationship with a big woman this attraction will be fuelled by from porn if that makes sense. As my brain can only associate fat woman right now with porn.

I have tried to masterbate to skinnier woman but it is not the same and as bigger woman and almost more "dull" which makes my mind go to the the answer that, i only like big woman because bigger is better but i know this is untrue. However in my mind i guess bigger is better to me technically, but not in that way that is not the way im attracted to bigger woman.
I would say im attracted to bigger woman because they feel dominating but not in the more aggresive dominating definition you would jump too. Im attracted to this comforting domination if that makes sense...which it probably doesnt buy anways.

I guess my main problem and worry is that porn is naturally associated as a bad thing which it is in my mind anyways if you are exposed to pretty explicit stuff which again im not all into at all which is why i prefer people like mary boberry as she just doesnt put on this whole fettish type persona and just acts herself.
But my worry is that i can either stop masterbating and try put the attraction behind me and have this normal life and unjudged life with a skinnier woman but still live the guilt that im probably still attracted to bigger woman which i guess is something which doesn't go away after reading some of the messages on this thread.
Or either grow up and live this said perfect life with a big girl but still have this constant guilt that its wrong as most people in the world judge people for being big.

Look im just looking for some advice for someone who has had personal experiencr with something like this and someone who can share their thoughts and advice about it as well

>>51438
Get the fuck out of here, kid.

>>51438
I feel bad for you man

The only reason I hate having this fetish is cuz there are no fatties where i live. I could count the SSBBW types ive matched with on dating apps on one fucking hand. Then i have to tolerate hanging out with retards that i dont even like just to fuck…

>>51485

Assuming you're actually a Dane and not a VPN flag - I really do feel sorry for FA's in Europe. I can't imagine how rare a fatty is there.

>>51485
> Then i have to tolerate hanging out with retards that i dont even like just to fuck…
Men who date skinny women say the same thing. Hoes are generally easy to smash and not worth socializing with.

>>51507
That's not danish flag lol.

Fat chicks are everywhere around here too unless we're talking about like 500 pounds, and yeah if that's the only thing you can get hard to yeah then we might have a problem but those don't grow on trees anywhere in the world.
I've had sex with a 3-4 SSBBW's ages ranging from 18 to 32, but of course it's because I'm a social person so I guess I'm one of these aforementioned retards. Not saying this to gloat but you'll definitely find someone good if you put in the effort.
It's starting to be a few years ago, but I was in a larger city in Alabama, US as a teenager and obviously there were more fat people there than here but the thing is that the majority of SSBBWs there looked repulsive, while if you see one here she's probably still gonna be a 5/10 at least.

>>47326
Browsing DeviantArt can be a great therapy method to hold your fapping urges, just look at the amout of lolcows copy and pasting their waifus onto poorly traced doodles and makes you recapacite that these people are probably your age or older and they still think they're the new Da Vinci due to constant ego stroking in their echochambers.