>>41273 (OP)Hey man, I'm a few years older and honestly had pretty similar worries and troubles when I was 19. It was still early days with having sex at that point for me, as it may be for you, and I remember encountering issues with staying hard with girls. After lots of stress and worries and doubts about my relationship to porn and to being an FA, I honestly just found that I I wasn't used to the feeling of pussy, and that a girl needs to be sufficiently fat to have sex with for me. After a good few tries and an understanding gf, I quickly got used to the feeling of pussy as opposed to my hand. And I really lost interest in trying to fuck girls who I found were pretty, but I knew weren't sexually satisfactory: i.e. fat. And since then I've fucked some girls who I had zero emotional connection with, frankly did not find their body particularly beautiful, but I was horny and she was a fat girl to fuck. No problems with sex. Last time I tried with a cute slim girl, bad night for performance.
In short, maybe you need to get truly used to the feeling of vaginal sex still( was the case for me. It takes awhile) and accept that your sexuality may simply skew away from petite women. I'll confess, I'm not fully out of the woods with self doubt around being an FA, but the more I think about my own sexuality the more I realize that a fat woman is the only true path for sexual satisfaction, and trying to force enjoyment with a skinny woman is setting myself up for disappointment. And if you're on this site, that may be the case for you.
