>>8982My guy, if this isn't just some dark fap rp, I'm gonna be real:
The world and reality isn't as hot as the fantasy and never will be.
"What's the point (not gaining)?"
Survival. That's the point. Listen, I say this as a currently 230lb fat ass who got a gym membership to get in shape and attract all the ssbbws I could desire:
You just have to say 'fuck it' and do it. To stay doing it, stay motivated. Take pics of your progress, if you're a feedee, it'll be especially hard but also if resist touching yourself (since you can't this is easier to do, but I mean WHEN you get smaller) it should help control your binge eating.
Also, stick to a specific something for a WHILE. My coworker got jacked eating McDonalds and the dude has veins popping out like Ubisoft Map Icons.
You're meant to learn to hate the same taste every. Single. Day.
If it makes you depressed, exercise. Legit, push yourself on those days. It'll hurt and you'll be VERY sore (make sure to get plenty of protein) but trust me when I state; you WILL feel better afterwards if you say, focus on cleaning the trash around your place.
I'm gonna stop here, since this is long enough already, but trust me when I say: You don't want to kill yourself this way, dude.
Take some of the FATTEST models out there, for instance. You think they put out every day to their feeders? No, because they're so damn fat just lifting their fupas makes them too tired for stuff like sex.
The bad knees, the lack of breath, the more-than-likely diabetes, the pain; this all goes away when you're thinner. You don't even need to be thin, but fit. And I think you know just how painful vs sexy it is at your current size, hmm?
Fit people can have PLENTY of pudge (had a 240-ish ex who was SURPRISINGLY flexible thanks to mix of Yoga and Tai-chi).
Your life isn't destroyed, you're just spiraling to destruction. You can ALWAYS turn back with enough hard work.
But only you can choose to do it, fatso.