>>164418This is the tension in this fetish. She was trying to keep it bright, already strugglin as when she was in this family-intervention-crises, than she wanted to start a body-positivity-fatfluencer-youtube-thing. But what I was getting was, that since I'm watching her, she is doing nothing else than this. Posing for people like me.
While she always had the tendency, to be artsy, to write, to be creative, like she could't live with the lack of sense this lifestyle implies. Others can, but than she says feeling like an meat sack - completely devaluing herself.
She was indicating that for some days she just lays around eating whithout leaving the bed. What can this be? If not some cute kind of decandence and lazyness? The REAL fucking darkness!
I like her. She's smart. And I was hoping telling her story as a bright one would work for her. She deserves it. Like everyone But she (as everyone else here!) won't get away without buying the contradictions who are structural for this fetish as long as she practices it, letting it doing things to her body and her well-being.
